Some of the things we create do not come from inspiration alone. They come from necessity.
The beloved Nocturnum Bath Bomb was born during a period of my life when anxiety quietly began to shape my nights. Nocturnal panic attacks became familiar. Waking suddenly with a racing heart, a tight chest, and the feeling of being unanchored in my own body. Like many people who struggle with anxiety, I looked perfectly fine on the outside while learning, night after night, how to calm a nervous system that felt perpetually on edge.
One of my first panic attacks happened years ago on my honeymoon in Europe. I was newly pregnant without knowing it, overwhelmed by heat, crowds, and unfamiliar surroundings. The sensation came on suddenly and powerfully. That trip eventually brought us to the Swiss Alps, and it was there that something shifted.
We spent time in alpine pools, surrounded by mountains, cool air, and stillness. In the water, I felt safe. I felt free. I felt grounded. There was something deeply instinctual about it. My breath slowed. My body softened. The noise in my mind quieted. It reminded me of something ancient and familiar, like returning to a mother’s womb.
When I came home, water became part of my daily nervous system care. Herbal baths became a necessary ritual rather than a luxury. Being submerged helped regulate my breathing, calm my heart rate, and reconnect me to my body. During a time when anxiety made me feel disconnected, water gave me a place to land.
Because I was bathing so often, I became deeply aware of what I was putting into that water. Many conventional bath products are filled with synthetic fragrances, dyes, and harsh ingredients. I wanted something safe for my body, safe for my family, and supportive rather than stimulating. That need is what led me to begin formulating my own bath bombs.
Nocturnum was created as a nighttime ritual. One rooted in calm rather than excess. It is free from synthetic toxins and designed to support rest, grounding, and nervous system regulation. It is not about fixing anxiety. It is about creating a safe container to soften into when anxiety shows up.
I continue to live with anxiety. That has not disappeared. What has changed is how I meet it.
I return again and again to the elements.
Water for grounding and calm with herbal baths, swimming in river and lakes as much as possible.
Fire for comfort and warmth. Candles flickering and hearths blazing.
Air for space, breath, and meditation.
Earth for connection, stability, and the quiet peace of my forest home.
Nocturnum is a reflection of that elemental return. A reminder that healing does not always mean removing struggle, but learning how to create rituals that help us feel safe within it. Embracing the night that can wake us, and meeting her with grace.
If you use Nocturnum, I hope it becomes a small sanctuary for you too. A place to breathe, to float, and to remember that your body knows how to come back to calm.
Be Well
Amanda
